i have seriously neglected this blog concept yet again. i dont mean to. each time that i sit to write i just end up scrolling through the running list of blogs that i read and lose track of time. then, before i know it its time to feed Finn. not that im complaining, really im not. i love my time nursing him. i just feel like i need to justify my slacker ways in updating everyone on all that is new with me and my family.

instead of attempting to write a major summary of the last 2 months i think that i will try to cover the basics as they come to me. as i mentioned in a previous post, stephen and i were blessed by the arrival of our wee little man, Mr. Finnegan Legrand. as cliche as it sounds, he has changed our lives forever in ways that we never knew possible. its amazing how this little person can enter your life for just a few short weeks and you suddenly can't seem to imagine life without him. stephen and i are completely smitten with him. he is perfect.

perhaps the most pleasant surprise of all is the renewed love that i have for my husband, stephen. it hit both of us pretty hard and unexpectedly i think. for the pessimists out there you can call it hormones and adrenalin but i know that it is more than that. we had attempted to brace ourselves for the overwhelming love that we would feel for this little stranger but hadn't completely considered what it would do for our marriage. the process of labor seemed to be not just about the delivery of our son but the journey that all three of us were making together. i feel a whole new sadness for women who have to go through child birth alone. i don't know what i would have done without stephen by my side.

we aren't stupid, we imagined that it would be an unbelievably amazing experience that would strengthen and test our relationship, we just didn't know how much. i couldn't have ever imagined it. we were already pretty infatuated with one another and our marriage seemed to be growing stronger each day (some days better than others of course. i can't seem to shake my 12 year old tendencies of feet stomping every now and then). he is my best friend and i am so greatful for his patience, unconditional love and sense of humor. i am in love the husband he has become and the wonderful father that he is gracefully becoming. i love him on a whole new level. i can't wait to see what the future brings.