lets backtrack, shall we?

alright folks (all three of you) i have been looking through my old blog drafts today and realized that i have WAY too many of them. why am i so scared to post my thoughts? this topic came up in 'playgroup' at graces house this morning. some people don't post as much because they know that certain family members will read it and they are afraid to offend anyone. some people said that they only use their blog to note special occasions & milestones for family that live far away- but they wish that they had the time, patience, talent etc to write as some others do. while others seem to let their insecurities get the best of them or compare themselves to others too much. i am guilty of all of the above, and more.

several of us began talking about other friends and acquaintances that keep blogs and how much we enjoy them. we compared notes, made observations and listed some of our favorites. i quickly began to notice how much we actually keep 'tabs' on one another- even those that we (or i at least) don't often speak to if we run into them in the grocery store! how strange is that?! it's kind of a new form of voyeurism. only, i don't think that its as bad. i have really gained a lot of insight with the snippets that i've read here and there. it has helped me feel a little more normal at times, a little more hopeful and a little more aware of where people are coming from and the people that they want to portray themselves as or are. since i tend to be one who makes too many assumptions, this insight has been helpful.

anyway, all of this to say that i think that i will backtrack and post some of my old drafts. they might not be eloquent. they might not be interesting. they might not be smart or insightful but they are my thoughts none the less and i should really try and edit myself less sometimes. so, bare with me, will ya?